Sex, School and Spain

These things all rule my world right now,. let's start with sex - everyone's favorite. Or as Troy McClure might say and I'll leave you with what we all came to see, hardcore nudity.
So I'm in a very sexual phase right now. after spending all of last fall semester not getting laid (how pathetic is that) I was very frustrated. I was stressed with school, working with gay men and not going out much. I had no confidence in myself, which is key it turns out. Unfortunately all you need to feel sexy and confident is someone who tells you how beautiful you are all the time, like a boyfriend.

Back on track, I was not getting any. and I had given up for a while. Then come January I got really horny and came out as bi. which is total bullshit. I was just being extra slutty and having come girl crushes. Even then I never acted on these girl crushes, and when girls did hit on me, they were all fat and I disliked them and began getting sluttydrunk and hitting on guys. I even developed a crush on one friend of mine who now disgusts me. except for he's slimmed down and beefed up in anticipation of running a marathon. and he's opened up to me.

Summer changed all of that. I slimmed down, kind of had a man (or men), got tan, got confident, got lots of attention from men, got laid regurlary and wore many short skirts all summer. There were the occasional fucks last year, but having regular sex really changes your outlook on life. you eat less, feel good and makes you not feel so bad about laying around in bed all day.

So long story short. I had men hitting on me in NYC constantly, no lie. no lie. I realized I was totally cute. and tan. like a goddess. and outgoing. and now that I've been back here in MPLS, I have been getting lots of attention. Some friends like me, some confirmed, some not. People like me in classes, work, etc. And I'm not necessarily talking about sexually (but I mostly am), but I have people like Tara who is my girlcrush, who generally likes being around me a lot. And I like her and I'm so glad we have class together. and that's that. or jill and ani from al's, both of whom I immeadiately consider my friends and enjoy.

so in conclusion. I am basing this on one comment erik told me this summer. in addition to boosting my shine and confidence by dating me and calling me sexy/beautiful/pickone, he told me to ditch the lack of confidence I have in myself. and even that makes me better in bed. seriously. I think i improved significantly by not being such a prude about certain things/places/acts/etc. and talking about sex is a good thing. as erica jong confirmed in her latest book which I devoured in two days.

so, like the prince song says, you're beautiful, loved and blessed. go with it, get laid and have a great year! it's my plan.

ok, so onto school.
I have a busy semester. I am working at al's. I am a research assistant, I am a teaching assistant, I am enrolled in three classes (one 3K, one 3KW and one 5K) and I am writing my honors thesis. yet so far I have not been overwhelmed. I will be, though! oh boy

Al's is great. It's a shit hole with great food and witty employees/ Everyone is quick and funny. from. Let me summarize the coworkers I know best in no particular order
Ani. she's cute, she's short, round and italian. She's an overacheiver, MPIRG chair, global studies. nice, outgoing, and likes to party. we have lots of mutual friends.
Doug. he's old, bitter, crude. yet everything he says in sincere. and he cares about us personally. he must be the greatest dad in the world. He can be a 50 year old and make sex jokes to the 19 year old workers and have it not be creepy. he can be stressed as hell, but friendly with all the customers.
Harry. he's a jew. so jewish he literally lives in Hillel. I did not like him from the kaballah class we had together. but now I do. He's actually nice, has a good sense of humor. sometimes he's a little too my-way-is-the-way. and his interest in football scares me.
Annie. she's asian. we just aren't good at being friends. maybe we're not meant to be. but i love her so much still and we have good times when we drink together. TOO BAD SHE QUIT FACEBOOK!
Jill. she's asian. and she gets on all four. nuff said!
Jim. he's burned out, man.
MR. my least favorite. maybe because she babies me.
Bridget. this girl kicks a lot of ass. she's so friendly. and outgoing. she wants to be your friend as soon as you come in the back, but not in the creepy I-have-no-friends way. and we're in a class together.
Justin.my cousin. who I have not worked with yet.

Spain. it just rules my world because of my thesis right now.